Sep 21
Today is my fifth veggie/protein day. I have been thoroughly enjoying these days. Weight has bounced a bit, like something in high velocity coming to a halt – first it bounced a bit back up, then dropped, then bounced back up and then settled exactly where I was 5 days ago.
The next 2 days will be my last 2 milk days while wearing the beads. For the first time I am dreading the milk days. Hopefully it will go better than I anticipate.
Sep 11
The day so far has been very uneventful, most notable was that I did my treadmill and weight workout this morning and that we saw our accountant and we now finally can file our 2008 (yes, I know) business and personal taxes.
It is my first milk day of the last 4 milk days before I begin with transition. Can you tell that I am counting?
Less than a week and I can have some fish! I’m a bit worried what 5 days veggies will do for me, because – very much the opposite of some on the list – veggies day don’t get my bathroom visits stuck but rather have my digestive system go full force (my husband says it’s all the ‘roughage’ causing it) and after 2 days it gets close to upsetting my stomach. Acidophilus & Bifidus help calming, but 5 days in a row with nothing but veggies and a little lean protein? But this will be something I’ll be facing in a week and will try not to worry too much about it right now.
One thing which is strongly on my mind are all the foods I am looking forward to again incorporate more and more into my life and so many things I want to cook. As mentioned in my posting Cooking and baking in the future, I do have a list in my mind. And, instead of going back to that posting over and over again to append to the list, I decided to dedicate a whole page to it. Thus, here and now and in advance I will apologize if this list of goodies to come will tempt you – best not even to go and look at it if you have a hard time resisting!
Sep 7
The most notable occurrence today was that I posted something to the list which obviously hit home with a few people. I wrote this comment after watching a member self-sabotaging like crazy after making huge gains towards the goal. As I myself have been there, done that, I can relate. Maybe this email of mine can help somebody else some other time too:
here comes a brute comment:
you don’t want to win.
for what ever reason, you want people to NOT tell you that you’re good and pretty and skinny and looking good. you want to be a loser and to be able to hate yourself for not winning. that is the game your playing right now.
the way out?
stop hating yourself.
allow yourself to be happy. forgive yourself for all these things in the past you thought you should do and didn’t do, couldn’t do, missed to do.
whatever you’ve done, whatever reason you think you’re not worthy, whatever sympathy you get by NOT being strong and lean and winning… think about it – what is MORE worth to you? somebody else’s sympathy or that inner strength and feeling good about yourself, no matter what others say?
you can do it.
the first step is to allow it to yourself.
Sep 6
It’s my first day of my last set of beads on basic… now I am beginning to count-down! If all goes as planned, I’ll be on transition by next Monday. Can’t wait! I am so happy to be over the ‘hump’ of the past few days of dreading each and every day on the program. Whatever comes now my way this week, I know I can face it as I know that next week I am beginning to add chicken and fish back into my life.
The one thing I know I will want to work on diligently is to do a good and full transition. People on the list who ‘fail’ and fall back into bad eating habits all say that they didn’t do a full transition or skipped it all together. As much as I do not want to cheat to ensure fastest progress though this program, just as much do I want to ensure a good transition so that I never have to go BOB – back on beads.
Aug 18
Today there was some discussion on the mailing list about coffee and how much some people miss it and how they deal with it. Several have managed to completely drop the milk or cream with it, even after the program.
Over the course of the day while following the discussion I realized that I did not have my daily 1/2 cup of Nespress coffee with a tablespoon of half & half and a small piece (1/4 serving) of chocolate in over 7 days – it’s usually my daily celebration of a day well done after dinner and oddly enough I have not even missed it (up to now). That’s pretty interesting to be happening on a diet I think.
10 August 2009 is the day that I began a new adventure.
As a fact, it is so far off any other diet I've ever read about or done myself that I needed a place to keep it all together, a place to write down my life on this path.
Not that I am currently heavily overweight. But I have always been very skinny and I feel at my best then. From the 45 pounds I had gained, I managed to rid myself of 20 pounds in arduous attempts. But the last 25 pounds have stuck with me way too long and tired of constantly "dieting" and hovering around the same 5 pounds, I decided to drastically change something.
Feel free to poke around or you can follow my voyage from Day Zero