This day is not easy. Not only that it’s 4 weeks to the day that Tricky past away. But food wise. My second last milk day on the program. I’m not cheating, but boy, am I ready to. On the other hand it’s a feast as I know it is only one day more after this and then I am truly on the way back. I have already begun digging my head into what I could cook in the veggy departement, I want something different than the past few weeks to celebrate my first fish… and not having rice or such with it does seem kind of… lacking. So I’m looking around what really will make a perfect feast. Have a whole day left to find it!

It’s a drizzly day outside. Having an introversion headache since yesterday. Tried changing it, it’s better but still there. Today I’m trying to get a veterinarian appointment to have a checkup on Xena. Knowing that then I’ll have to talk about Tricky’s death makes me feel all the grief and loss again. Not looking forward to it.

My weight is continuing on the promised curve. And the body fat has settled on the lower range. So far for 25 days I have not once cheated. On the email list they wish each other “a perfect day”, meaning “no BLT” (no bite, like or taste of anything outside the strict protocol). So far this was not a problem for me. Why pay and go through all the hassle of this program and then cheat and severe the chemical constellation which is the reason of such great fat and not muscle loss?

Yesterday the ordered WALDEN FARM products arrived: Chocolate Dip, Marshmallow Dip, Strawberry Spread and Apricot Spread. Opened and tasted all except the Strawberry Spread. Geez is that stuff icky sweet. Sucralose, I get it, but how about just the half of it? It overpowers all other tastes. Not sure if I’ll manage to each the Marshmallow Dip. The Chocolate Dip might be interesting to use with/in a coffee and I’m hoping that the Apricot Spread in the yogurt will lose the artificial overtone.