It’s day ZERO – the day before the begin… and I am completely and utterly FREAKING out, afraid that I’ll fail as oh so many times.
Freaking out reminds me of the times when I quit smoking – over 8 years ago, maybe almost 10 – and that is when my weight “problem” began. What helped me then could help me now, writing down all I encounter when I’m about to quit the quit. Lets vent, cry and scream but also share some good moments over the course of the next 2 months… could be more but shouldn’t be more according to “logic”… we will see.
So, HELLO WORLD, here I am.
#1 by Naavy on July 24th, 2010
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Great job! But what other food do you eat for this diet besides fruits, veggies, milk and yogurt, tea, water, crystal lite, diet sodas. What else?
#2 by marlyse on July 25th, 2010
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that’s it.
#3 by Margaret on March 29th, 2011
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on my way to get started,picking up beads to today.Loved reading all your comment I too feel very afraid but I NEED TO DO THIS so bad so if you are still writing would love to hear from you.thank you for your posts again. I have the opposite problem going to quick smoking once the weight some of it anyway comes off.Here I GO WISH ME LUCK think I MAY NEED IT but this has to be the first day of the rest of my life.Actually tomorrow today is like a fat Tuesday…..
#4 by marlyse on March 29th, 2011
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What a decision and what an adventure is ahead of you! It will not always be easy, but the one truth is that the closer you stick to the program the faster you’ll be through it! Plus, obviously you are not doing it long distance which is great because this allows you to talk with others while you are on the program.
WISHING YOU A TON AND MORE OF PERSEVERANCE !!!
One thing of caution, please don’t tell yourself “I will quit smoking once I lost weight” because if you do not TRULY want to quit smoking you might find the excuse to never lose the weight…
#5 by MARGARET on March 30th, 2011
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THANKS AND YOU ARE RIGHT ABOUT THE SMOKING BUT ALL WILL COME TOGETHER SOON.I REALLY WANT THIS .YOU ARE A BIG HELP THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME.BE WRITING AGAIN SOON.LOT OF QUESTIONS ON THE BREATHING THING WAITING TI SPEAK TO CONSULTANT
#6 by marlyse on July 24th, 2011
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So it is now just about 2 years later. And I am – almost – the same point. I had kept my weight off really nicely, perfectly almost for a year. I bounced 3 pounds up and down but was always in my good zone. Then, last year I went to Switzerland – first time in 8 years, boy did I miss family – and to meet my daughter for the first time in 26 years. It was such a good experience but at the same time it was horrendously hard because I had to leave again after 2 weeks. And after that I started to put on weight. Last October that was. And I put on and was fighting it all the way but went up to about 140 pounds, 10 over my upper ideal number. And I was holding it between 138 and 142 for several months but then I started doing something else I had not done in a long while which on top of it killed all my good routines of healthy food, vitamins and workout and how things go, suddenly they went from bad to bottomlessly bad. And within 2 months only I added another 17 pounds. So now I have again 30 pounds to lose.
UGH.
I thought to do the BEADS DIET approach but without beads to lose it and started this past week, which was a bad idea as I also started a new job plus some other stresses around. Faltered already on day 3.
So here I am. I HAVE TO CHANGE something or else I will hit 170 or 250 and I do not want this to happen. As I was getting a lot of spam today on this blog I began reading on my original trip and saw how I did it and how much weight I lost in JUST 37 DAYS – over 30 pounds !!! By end of AUGUST I could be there again !!!
Reading back on my former adventure and how much it had helped me to write everything down, I decided it would be good to do the same again. As I am NOT going to follow the diet to the letter I feel hesitant to just continue with blog entries. At first I thought I’d label the entries Day ONE* (i.e. just add an Asterix). But then I thought I could just add a comment on each day. This makes me also reread what was and compare to now. I am aware that not following to the letter will possibly set me up for failure. But I want to try it for a week and then decide if I need to adjust or if I am happy enough with the results. For now I do not want to buy beads (I’ll still rub the points) and for example I will not buy fake sugarless jam to eat with my yoghurt but will use my preferred brand which contains sugar.
Having failed last week makes me now of course very, very nervous and I have the feeling I can not do it.
If there would be gods and half-gods, I’d ask them now to give me strength. Guess I’ll have to build on my own.
#7 by marlyse on August 22nd, 2011
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Alright. July 24 was not a beginning. It was not a commitment. It was nothing but a bubble. So now I am here. With beads and hopefully full commitment. Terrified. Again. I have a lot to lose. 35 lbs.